It’s about halfway to the end of the semester and I’m not really sure how I feel about that. It kind of worries me about how fast the time is going. It has made me realize that nothing really can wait. The days are going to pass by no matter what you do. So you really have to make the most of every moment. That’s something I’m striving to do. “Don’t count your days, make your days count.” That’s a quote I’ve become quite fond of, I feel as though it’s become my life motto. It’s getting closer to winter break, which means it’s getting closer to the end of the semester. The halfway mark in my senior year. All of high school as gone by so fast, it’s crazy. I’m not even sure if I’m ready for this, ready for my future. I started applying to a few CSU’s the other day. I also signed up for the SAT again that’ll be the second time I’ve taken it. I really regret not doing it sooner; this is the last SAT test colleges will accept. I’ve procrastinated too much, and it’s all because I’m scared.
I’m honestly scared of the future and what I will do. I know what I want to be but I don’t know what to do or how to do it. There are some great people around me that I know will help; like Ms. Torres, and my family. But for some reason I’m afraid to ask for that help. I feel like I should know these things, but I don’t and I feel slightly ashamed of that.
I think I spent too much time anticipating for the future that I didn’t fully prepare for everything I have to do before I can start my future. I just feel like there’s more I can be doing to better my future. Like striving for more level 4’s, which I am trying to do but for some class I just find so difficult.
It’s almost Thanksgiving break and I’m planning to work on a lot of things. But mostly I want to work on Government. I’ve always had trouble with history classes and this is no exception. I try very hard to understand and get everything done, but the information never sticks in my head. Last year I somehow managed to get some level 4’s which made me feel good about myself. But this year im struggling to stay on pace.
But no matter, I will get everything done. I will pass all my classes. And I will graduate proud of what I’ve done and accomplished. And then I’ll go off to college and make myself proud of how far I have gone.
I’m honestly scared of the future and what I will do. I know what I want to be but I don’t know what to do or how to do it. There are some great people around me that I know will help; like Ms. Torres, and my family. But for some reason I’m afraid to ask for that help. I feel like I should know these things, but I don’t and I feel slightly ashamed of that.
I think I spent too much time anticipating for the future that I didn’t fully prepare for everything I have to do before I can start my future. I just feel like there’s more I can be doing to better my future. Like striving for more level 4’s, which I am trying to do but for some class I just find so difficult.
It’s almost Thanksgiving break and I’m planning to work on a lot of things. But mostly I want to work on Government. I’ve always had trouble with history classes and this is no exception. I try very hard to understand and get everything done, but the information never sticks in my head. Last year I somehow managed to get some level 4’s which made me feel good about myself. But this year im struggling to stay on pace.
But no matter, I will get everything done. I will pass all my classes. And I will graduate proud of what I’ve done and accomplished. And then I’ll go off to college and make myself proud of how far I have gone.